january kisses

fingers twine as leaves falls
showing some teeth, it's not hard
close my eyes, touch your cheek
memories begins to fade, it begins to reek

dreams pull over in my head
your face, your smile, your smell
never been that happy in bed
but i don't have a fairytale to tell

heart pounding as it remembers
jaw clenches to hold back my tears
blinking glittery eyes to hide the fear
numb from your abandonment

my nerve system in my brain cannot feel
too far to reach, too far to reel
january kisses tells it all

a story about you and i
how we lived
how we hurt
how we died
how we resurrected
and how we try to survive
each day by day

spat

tell me what is it that you want
you always made me feel like a pawn
what is it that you want to taunt
come and chase me here in the lawn

craving for kindness as it was rewarded
spat on the ice so it will melt
a crown was given to you if you remembered
couldn't you understand how it felt?

annoyed if love was shown
let me go she says
he let himself got thrown
but now she wants him to stay

burning star shot through the earth
amazed at how it flew across the universe
beauty was taken, as it got dispersed
twinkling eyes begging for mercy
spat on that eyes too will you?