What do you do when you miss someone?

I miss you alot and my fingers are itching to text you but I know nothing good can come from it. I guess that's why I decided not to text you because I know if I did, it will be another setback for me.

I am scared if I look for you, you do not respond the way I want you to. Especially after you have read my article maybe now you think I'm a pathetic girl. I really want to exit myself out of this fantasy I have of you.

I keep reminding myself that you do not love me, you're just lonely. But as much as I repeat that in my mind, I still want you to be with me. I don't know if this is an obsession or pure love. I'm getting confused myself.

I think of you every minute of every day and it is very tiring but I can't help myself rewinding the good times we had. Even though it was just for a little while. You told me you weren't happy with our relationship before but I really don't understand what I did wrong and what happened along the way.

Was it because I became clingy? Was it because I didn't have a life besides trying to be with you?

Everyday I hope to move on yet everyday I hope you will text me. I wish that a miracle can happen and suddenly you realize that I was what you needed and wanted. But who are we kidding, reality isn't like that.

I really hope you don't find a girl that is better than me, at least not when I am still in love with you.