And so he left
He left without the desire to see me, without the proper closure that I needed.
I wonder everyday on what he was thinking about, why does he keep coming, leaving, coming, and leaving.
Did he just kept coming because he was afraid to lose a fan?
It wasn't fair, what you did to me.
Telling me he wanted to see me and then cancelled last minute, it broke my heart. Any normal person would probably get sick of this behaviour, and yet I still was able to forgive him. Was I a weak person? Or was I a strong kind hearted person?
Why do we let someone we love do unfair things to us?
Is it because the more you don't have it, the more you want it? I wonder if things were great with him and I, would I actually love him this much?
So many questions yet nobody can answer me. It's draining my energy and I'm tired of feeling this way.
I fear the day he will meet someone new and totally forget about me, what if during that time, I haven't forgotten about him?
I'm scared for something I can't control. I'm scared of losing him even though I don't even have him anymore.
I don't hate him, I understand where he's coming from. I understand why he couldn't love me the way I did to him.
I just hate the situation that I am in, and I pray every single night for God to take this pain away.
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