Uneven

It seems that I could never let him go. When I thought I was done last time and decided to part ways with him, things always come back again.

Everytime we saw each other we couldn't let go of one another. At least that's what I thought until today.

"I don't feel the same way about you anymore"

Those words came out from his mouth at 2 am in the morning when I couldn't sleep and I woke him up to talk about us.

If he didn't feel the same way, why does he keep having me around? Why does he keep hugging me, kissing me the way he used to? How could somebody unlike someone that fast?

Those questions circled around my brain and he didn't have the answer to them. It was just how he felt.

When feelings are uneven, who is it to blame? 

How could this happen when everything was going really great?

Everyday I felt stupid, fooled and played. Following him around like a lost puppy when he on the other hand wanted to put me up for adoption.

My friends kept telling me that I was a fool and that he wasn't into me anymore. I couldn't believe them. How could I? When every time I see him it felt right. How could I feel right and he felt wrong? Did I miss something along the way or did he? I gave him everything I had to try and make him love me back but it was never enough, he just kept slipping away.

He said it was just wrong timing. But when will it be the right time? I have never felt about this to man in my entire life and when I gave it all, it was crushed into pieces.

No, not just crushed - it was crushed into pieces, put into one box, placed on a dirty road, got shat on by a deer, and ran over by a truck.

How to let go of someone you love so much? You keep hoping and hoping and hoping. I just want to move on so that I could forget we ever had a relationship, forget we ever knew each other, overall I want to,

Forget about him.